i am sad.
i'm so sad.
i feel really sad.
waking up im sad.
dreams are sad.
like, grey, un-inspired dreams of vague sadness.
like a tuna-melt, only it's a sadness melt.
clawing at my chest w/clammy fingers sad.
sort of sad.
wishing for ~20% less sadness at any given moment.
would be happy with less sadness.
can't even cry, it's not that type of sadness.
it's more like, severe. there's probably a word for it.
a very specific word for my sadness that i haven't found yet.
the inability to find the word is now a part of the undefined nature of my sadness.
maybe will try to, something.